tummy problems
for the past couple of weeks i’ve been having bad tummy problems (aka diarrhea). it started right after i got back from shanghai. that was the first time i had bad stomach pains along with the big D. it got better so i didn’t think much of it and headed to cambodia. i was totally fine in cambodia, then troubles starting brewing my last few days there. i took some magical po chai pills that saved me from past tummy problems but wasn’t quite doing the trick this time around. so tummy problems continued off and on. a few days ago it came back bad. my friend from hong kong was visiting, and we headed over to a nearby town to do some sightseeing, but i couldn’t do anything….
i finally figured that i must have some sort of bug or worm or parasite living in my tummy and no amount of po chai pills was going to get rid of it. so i consulted an american friend who’s been here for a year and has had all the tummy problems you could think of, and she suggested i take some bug-killing drugs. it’s working because i’m feeling better already.
but the past few days were quite horrible. i couldn’t eat. i didn’t sleep well. and i was quite dehydrated. i’m glad i had friends staying with me. ya see, when i’m sick, i revert to being a child, and i just want to be taken care of. i wish i was at home…with my mommy tending to all my needs…=) so my friends replaced my mommy and made sure i was taking my medication and bought me sprite and crackers…
but as i was writhing in discomfort the other day, i thought…how much longer can i do this? how much longer can i be alone in a foreign country…not knowing if anybody would be able to take care of me when i’m sick? …not knowing what to do when i’m sick…
i just wanted to give it all up and return home and live a comfortable life. i have been seriously contemplating continuing this lifestyle in another country but was feeling incredibly discouraged. so i continue to hope and trust that if i am to make this move, He will not only make it clear but also fill these longings in my heart…
